June 1

This evening I left the office and headed for my car in the east parking lot . It was lightening and thundering and raining pretty good but I sloshed through the puddles in my flip-flops just the same only to remember as I was standing nearly in the middle of the parking lot that my car? Was parked in the west parking lot. My efforts to change things up a bit this morning when I arrived to work - late - didn't do me any good. In an attempt to leave work in a hurry because I was leaving later than usual didn't do me any good either. I had forgotten where I parked and just ended up being irritated and frustrated with myself. I need to slow down. On a day trip we took to Lake Tahoe while in California just last week I was in a hurry to make it to the bottom of a set of sketchy stairs (in flip flops) so I could hurry up and snap a few photos of this spectacular waterfall we had stopped to look at. My family was waiting on me to take my photos so that we could start a two mile hike to Eagle Lake, but because I was rushing and not completely focused I slipped and fell with my camera in hand and my heavy backpack on my back. As soon as I hit the ground I knew I was hurt, my knee was throbbing and I could feel a pulsating knot in my lower back on the right hand side. I walked it off as best as I could and continued on trying not to think to much about it when really all I wanted to do was cry; I was in so much pain. On top of that I felt so stupid because I had fallen. Not even five minutes before this happened I had a fleeting thought in my head that I needed to change into tennis shoes but nope, I was in a hurry. And look where that got me. I need to slow down and pay attention. I've been thinking a lot lately about how jumbled my life seems to be. My email is piled up, I've rarely made the time to blog, I've lost my motivation to eat healthy and exercise regularly, laundry is behind, I have yet to unpack my suitcase from my vacation, my house needs some attention, I have notes scribbled on papers thrown into a pile that have no rhyme or reason, and the list goes on. All of that stuff probably seems trivial to most but to me, everything these days seems so overwhelming and unmanageable. And I'll be the first to tell you that I don't like it. It makes me twitchy, and uncomfortable and out of control. And dare I say it - it makes me feel: lazy. Yet I work full time and have two small children and indeed my plate is full and my cup is overflowing. I am my worst enemy indeed. I was thinking earlier this evening that I needed to sit down and write a list of things that needed my focus; what's a priority and what can wait. Of course my job and my family come first and foremost, but there is no reason why I can't mix in everything else. I need to find a balance. And then I read my horoscope:

Have you been indulging in too many goodies, dear Scorpio? You might feel somewhat under the weather today because of all this abundance. Therefore you probably should take it easy. Take advantage of your mood to think about re-organizing your priorities. Is a second piece of chocolate cake more important than your energy and health? Indulging can be important to your psychological sense of self-care, but don't forget about moderation, and don't forget that there are many other ways in which you can indulge yourself....

I'm taking that as a sign. Things do happen for a reason, don't they? My horoscope today could not have been more fitting. It seems to me as if my mind is right on track. Now if only I could get the rest of me to catch up.