I'm having a hard time sorting through all the emotions I'm feeling right now. Mostly I'm just in shock. And I'd be lying if I didn't say I was heartbroken. I can't even believe I'm pounding these thoughts out on my keyboard right now. I have no idea why things happen the way they do other than for reasons I cannot explain and right now? That's all I got to go off of. At some point I'll be able to put it all into words, words that make sense but right now I just can't. The thoughts, the memories....it's all just too fresh.
I've blogged several times over the last few weeks about Fargo and the tumors and the cancer and about how we've begun to prepare for his passing. We've talked to the kids. We've talked about what we are going to do when he does go and how long we are going to wait if it's taking a long time and physically taking a toll on him. We were as prepared as we ever could have been and literally just waiting. Waiting for the day to finally come.
I never in a million years imagined that Dakota (his brother) would go first; none of us did. And while I know we did the right thing by saying good-bye to him this afternoon, we will never forget him. He'll forever be in our hearts. He will forever be a part of our family.
Dakota 8/3/97 - 12/15/09
We're all going to miss you buddy.
what a long full life he lived! i'm sure that your dogs know just how much they are loved - it shows through your posts...so sorry for your loss, i'm praying for your family as you go through Dakota's passing & Fargo's failing health!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry Shelia. Hug those boys and Fargo for me.
ReplyDeleteOh no. I'm so sorry for your loss. It's just so painful.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry....
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. :(
ReplyDeleteThinking of you all tonight. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Sending a hug through the ol' internets!
ReplyDeletexoxo